There is a Muslim woman on the
walking trail this morning.
I spot her in the distance,
coming my direction, her
black from head to toe. I
look forward to the chance
for kindness, anticipating a
warm “good morning,” a smile.
And dare I be so bold as to offer
“As-salamu alaykum”? Or would
I be appropriating culture to weave
my own humble-brag cloak
of magnanimity? Maybe just “hello.”
As she gets closer, I begin to calculate
the odds of us meeting on this trail
today. A trail in a small southern
town. A town that only desegregated
its high schools in 1970. A town where
one can still see the old slave quarters, and
plantation houses are still occupied. A town
Trumpier than Trump himself. And here,
on this walking trail, comes this woman,
bravely hijabbed, shoulders back, not
curved with the fear that I seem to feel
so often these days, striding with purpose
along a path in a town perhaps far, far
away from her homeland. When we get closer,
I become sure of this. We smile and say hello.
She makes a comment about my dog,
a friendly comment. A friendly accented
comment. Pakistani? Afghan? My ear
is not good enough to discern. But not
American. Not USian. Not Southern.
Her warm rounded vowels, the soft r’s,
the hard t’s like d’s. I hear almost
Indian. Pakistani, I feel certain. I have
friends who are Pakistani, and I wonder
how lame it will sound to tell her so, so I
don’t. I just smile as warmly as I know how.
I try to create a smile that says, “I’m really
glad you’re here. No, really. I’m not just
saying that. I welcome you, and I honor you,
and I will stand up for your right to be here.”
But the smile is just a smile, and its
sincerity is enough, I suppose. I tell her to
have a nice day, and I hope that I’m not
the only one who ever tells her that here in
this confederate backwater, but I fear
I could be. And after we pass, I realize that
she handled our encounter with so much
more grace than I. I walk about 50 yards
and turn around to see the woman in
black walking away, shoulders back,
with purpose. And then I think about how
I’m too afraid to even put a Biden sign
in my front yard, and I realize that her smile
was saying to me, “Darlin’, if I belong here,
so do you. You don’t have to hide.” And my
liberal, socialist-democrat, progressive,
lesbian self says out loud, right there on that
path, in the heart of Dixie,
“Wa-Alaykum Salaam.”
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