There is a Muslim woman on the walking trail this morning. I spot her in the distance, coming my direction, her black from head to toe. I look forward to the chance for kindness, anticipating a warm “good morning,” a smile. And dare I be so bold as to offer “As-salamu alaykum”? Or would I be appropriating culture to weave my own humble-brag cloak of magnanimity? Maybe just “hello.” As she gets closer, I begin to calculate the odds of us meeting on this trail today. A trail in a small southern town. A town that only desegregated its high schools in 1970. A town where one can still see the old slave quarters, and plantation houses are still occupied. A town Trumpier than Trump himself. And here, on this walking trail, comes this woman, bravely hijabbed, shoulders back, not curved with the fear that I seem to feel so often these days, striding with purpose along a path in a town perhaps far, far away from her homeland. When we get closer, I become sure of this. We smile and say hello. She makes a comment about my dog, a friendly comment. A friendly accented comment. Pakistani? Afghan? My ear is not good enough to discern. But not American. Not USian. Not Southern. Her warm rounded vowels, the soft r’s, the hard t’s like d’s. I hear almost Indian. Pakistani, I feel certain. I have friends who are Pakistani, and I wonder how lame it will sound to tell her so, so I don’t. I just smile as warmly as I know how. I try to create a smile that says, “I’m really glad you’re here. No, really. I’m not just saying that. I welcome you, and I honor you, and I will stand up for your right to be here.” But the smile is just a smile, and its sincerity is enough, I suppose. I tell her to have a nice day, and I hope that I’m not the only one who ever tells her that here in this confederate backwater, but I fear I could be. And after we pass, I realize that she handled our encounter with so much more grace than I. I walk about 50 yards and turn around to see the woman in black walking away, shoulders back, with purpose. And then I think about how I’m too afraid to even put a Biden sign in my front yard, and I realize that her smile was saying to me, “Darlin’, if I belong here, so do you. You don’t have to hide.” And my liberal, socialist-democrat, progressive, lesbian self says out loud, right there on that path, in the heart of Dixie, “Wa-Alaykum Salaam.” © 2020 Deborah E. Moore, All Rights Reserved
