Chamomile tea.
Dragonblood incense.
Morning yoga.
Meditation.
Zen.
Poetry.
Peace.
I’ll leave the country to Barack.
It’s time for me to get back to balance.
Interfaith Minister, Writer, Poet, Teacher
Chamomile tea.
Dragonblood incense.
Morning yoga.
Meditation.
Zen.
Poetry.
Peace.
I’ll leave the country to Barack.
It’s time for me to get back to balance.
This morning, just after I woke up and just before I admitted that fact to the world, I daydream fantasized a poem. I was in an old house, but it was light and airy. Big wooden windows opened by breaking a paint seal. Dust motes swimming, diving and rising as the calico’s tail creates a stir from the sill. Hardwood floors. High ceilings. Mismatched furniture. Desk from a yard sale. Couch handed down from somebody I don’t remember. Plastic crates stolen from Purity Dairy holding books, tapes, . . . actual albums.
I see it, hear it, taste it. I remember it so well, and yet it is no specific place I have ever been. Rather, this is the vision that remains from long ago feelings.
It’s a rental. Upstairs a struggling musician lives with his girlfriend. He’s a bass player, thank god, not a drummer. The back screen door has a wire coil pulling it shut. Back porch a slab of concrete with four steps down to the yard, a patchwork quilt of grass, weeds, and bare earth. Grass has a hard time growing under the constant shade of such big old trees.
I feel it. It is a house of youthful hope and ancient desire. It holds a memory of simplicity unappreciated in its time. It was a place I think I might have been once in the 80s.
When the feeling has been explored, my poet’s mind begins to consider structure and rhythm. I anticipate the writing by combining words and rolling them around in my mouth awhile like analyzing a vintage Cabernet.
The last line might be, “How could I ever want more?”
Then, finally, I rise from my bed, abandon my theta state wet dream, and turn once again to the world of work and worry.
(For Dalinda) 30 April 2008
If you do a midlife crisis right
You get to reinvent yourself.
What feels like F4 chaos at first is just
The amputation of labels,
Façade extraction,
Annihilation of preconceived notions.
And then, like strolling through an identity mall,
You get to shop for the new you.
Sister, daughter, mother . . .
Those were never far away
And first to return after the tornado.
But then comes the fun part.
Um . . . thinker. I’ll take one of those.
Lover. Yes, I’ll wear that.
Writer. Can you throw in Poet on the twofer deal?
I choose each one carefully.
Now that I know I really can
Create myself
I want to make certain the me I create
Is the me I want.
Bird watcher. Rose grower. Dog lover.
Nature worshipper.
Symphony-goer. Art appreciater.
Good friend. Penny wise.
Rock solid. Laugh-a-lotter.
Meditator.
Mediator.
Believer in Magic.
Seeker.
Finder.
Grateful.
I am who I want to be.
I am who I have created myself to be.
I think I shall rest with a glass of tea
and call it good.
Bird perches on branch.
Bird and branch sway in the wind.
Bird is not afraid.